Tuesday, August 15, 2017

"The fading light is us, and we are, for a moment so brief (...) beautiful." -- Gary Shteyngart

Cinquante-et-Un.

Is It You?
06.29.17

Through the muffled words
and some things unspoken
is it you?

Through all the heartbreak
and tear soaked fingers
is it you?

And now in quiet surrender
and longing for the better
is it you?

In my search for the sweeter
and the promise of forever
is it you?

Cinquante.

05.17.17

I longed for him
like how the ebb of a wave
would gather itself
and return to the shore.

I missed him
like a jigsaw solved
about a dozen times
and now the pieces are incomplete.

I loved him
like the moon beaming
over the evening sky
and embracing the stars.

Quarante-Neuf.

06.01.17

Like broken glass
your words cannot put me together
I am scattered
I am shattered.

Like a wilting flower
your hands cannot bring back forever
I am left behind
I am stuck in time.

Quarante-Huit.

The Light Through Rue Sainte-Ursule.
08.11.17

She welcomed the dusk
and the light fading into the beams,
for only through the dark of night
can the promise of a new day begin.

Quarante-Sept.

The Last Act.
08.15.17

Trying to comprehend
the beginning and the end
the highs and the lows
the things we didn't know

Taking a moment to breathe
accepting one of us must leave
too many wrongs than rights
tiptoeing to the edge in sight.

And the curtain slowly falls
and my mind cannot recall
the lines that once enthralled
or the refrain that ceased it all.

* Inspired by 아이유's song Ending Scene

Quarante- Six.

10.21.16

Maybe I was too forgiving
to forget every wrong you did;
maybe I was simply naïve
or simply too hurt to even feel.

But I begin to pick up the pieces
and walk with my head to the sky,
my heart with hope to the brim
till there were lesser days to cry.

Quarante-Cinq.

10.23.15

And that's when it hit me,
that deep inside
I was still hurting
and my heart ached
for what was lost
and wanting to be found
I never gave up
but the tides of life
washed you away
until all that was left
was a memory of us
covered in dust.

Friday, May 12, 2017

"Find beauty... in the pattern of the shadows, the light and dark which that thing provides." -- Junichiro Tanizaki

Quarante-Quatre.

Moments in Denmark.
11.09.16

It was a cold Danish autumn
and my fingers felt each degree
almost numbing each hand
till they were close to a freeze.

But I choose to feel the warmth
and marvel at a snowflake's art
soak in the sights and sounds
and hold each memory to heart,

like food which tasted like home
and the laughter in the air
the smiles of the little ones
and each word spoken in loving care.

Now I see the beauty of moments,
insignificant as they may seem;
as long as the sum of it all is love,
there will always be good in between.


*Written after my trip to Denmark.


Quarante-Trois.

10.30.14

Once upon a time,
we were in love.
Our hearts teemed with dreams
and we were enough.

But somehow, we grew apart
things turned to gray,
the moments we shared
started dwindling away.

Until all that was left
was just you and me,
our broken beings,
an ending we did not see.

Almost a year has passed,
the sadness comes and goes.
I may now be forgotten,
just a stranger you once knew.

Quarante-Deux.

04.10.17

This bittersweet feeling
the feeling of being torn,
of want, of longing,
and forgetting altogether

but then the lingering 'why'
and all the possible reasons
and the tears that have returned
and the ache I've not felt in years;

will seeing you be an answer
to close out this drawn out chapter
or will I be doomed again
to reminisce the hurt after?

Monday, October 24, 2016

Quarante-et-Un.

10.24.16

Ink-stained fingers
writing words of pain and change,
phrases of my heart
flowing through my veins.

May the things I say
reflect who You are,
for Your goodness overwhelms me
I am enthralled by Your love.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Quarante.

Once Upon A Dream.
01.15.15

While the golden sun sets in the sky
igniting hues of orange and blue,
I looked through the corner of my eye
and silently gazed at you.

I wished I could stay in that moment
and think of nothing but here,
the city lights glowing in the distance,
or the chance to be with you near.

But the night is drawing close
And I guess it’s time to leave
I say goodbye to the sights and sounds
and this lovely, short-lived dream.

Trente-Neuf.

Friendship Remains.
01.03.15

We may reach for the stars, 
and our dreams may take us far
but I know our friendship will remain
because it started in our hearts.

I wish you nothing but the best
you deserve the beauty of it all
Hold on to hope and faith that does not fail
and you will surely never fall.


* For my friends I cherish the most.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Trente-Huit.

Fell For You.
10.23.14

You were a pleasant change 
in my mundane life
and I will miss you, I'm sure.
You opened my world
to things quite new,
but there's only so much I can endure.

(My heart did fall for you).

 

Sunday, August 23, 2015

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance." -- Alan Watts

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Random Ramblings: Loveteams.

(This new feature will highlight some of the more non-serious inner workings of my mind that don't take a lot of neurons to process.)

As funny and strange as it sounds, I have been getting into love teams (#LizQuen, #AlDub, & #JaDine), Filipino soap operas (or teleseryes as we call them), and OPM music a whole lot lately. I kind of wonder if it has to do with not being able to watch or listen to anything of that sort when I was younger (I was not allowed to watch dramas or television at night), if I just like the idea of feeling "kilig" (or giddy, in English), or if it's a subconscious choice to fill the void of being alone (which I honestly don't want to entertain).

I would lean more on the second reasoning.